Shadow

we’re all scared
we know there’s nothing to be afraid of
but all we can hear are teeth gnashing in the darkness

discontent? unhappiness?
is that me?
could’ve sworn it wasn’t there before
discontent. something not expected

feelings?
even if they are someone else’s

my own damn fault, of course, i was just asking for it

why did you tell them? why did you tell them? WHY did YOU tell THEM?

i know what they are. that’s why

not that they would anyway.

my light was off, and it left me alone, i wonder –
was i asleep? what was i doing for three hours?
we sleep and the earth moves
and next time or the time after
maybe it’ll move right out from under us
i wonder if i’ll have time to feel anything.

did i say something wrong?
i’m not exactly “happy”
you don’t know me at all –
nobody knows me
go away. go away.

he didn’t mean any harm.
of course i asked for it. how else could i get it over with?
i’m not afraid. isn’t that odd?
how long have you known?

that used to be true
that’s the strange thing

we don’t need this anymore

maybe i could let my guard down a bit
just as well, shouldn’t get too careless anyway.

what do you think, shadow? do i know her?
shadow?
was this what it was like for you?

i’m sorry, shadow, i’m so sorry.

not his fault. he didn’t mean any harm.

just luck, just stupid luck i was far enough away.
i could be dead now

i could be dead i could be dead i could be dead –
– dead dead dead –

this is what you do when you really love someone.

this is what you do

shadow no you’ll ruin everything

don’t you Fucking TOUCH ME!

shadow says it only makes things worse.
you fight back, it gets them madder.

shadow?

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